Saturday, March 10, 2007

Testing, Testing, 1-2-3

Ok, so the whole faith thing is harder than it seems. I have been on such an amazing spiritual high. And I still am! Actually, I'm beginning to understand its not just a temporary high. Rather, God is bringing me to a new level in Him. God is just doing so much in my life right now. You know that old song..."Count your blessings, name them one-by-one"? Well, I wouldn't know where to start.
So, not to take away from that by any means, but raising support is such an extreme leap of faith. It is like God has blind-folded me and told me to hop off a cliff with no assurance of a safety net. I just have to believe He's gonna provide. I used to think that living off of support would be so much easier than having to work a 40 hr/week job and provide for myself. But the truth is, God is providing no matter what your occupation. And secondly, it IS NOT ANY EASIER. In fact, it takes all ability out of my hands of making any kind of money, and forces me to practice the greatest faith of my life that I WILL make it to Colombia, I WILL always have food on my plate, and I dont' have to worry about a roof over my head. I'm also not promised that I will have a departure date of August 28th like I'm hoping and planning for. I'll go when my pledges have reached the required amount and once God has built a team with me that will last through thick and thin.
God is teaching me how to trust Him with it all. Sometimes i do great, other times I lose a little sleep, but I always know that this is what He has called me to. So I rest assured that He won't leave me behind to fin for myself. It is truly an amazing journey. I love this walk that I'm taking. It may feel like its a long walk through a pitch-black room. But the Lord's hand is inter-twined with mine and I can hear his voice whispering peace into my spirit. It may be a huge test for me, but I know that nothing is too big for the Lord.


Sean said...

It's so encouraging to read about your life and the journey God is taking you on! I'm really, really excited for you! I'll keep reading.